Raging River

I am getting angry
I am getting upset
Am I really feeling these things?
Or is it all in my head?

Why do you keep asking if I am okay?
Does it look like I am suffering?
Don’t suffocate me with generosity
Stop selling your kindness
I don’t need it; I don’t need it at all.

My head is full of mazes
Mazes I will never find my way out of
You try to help me
But you cant.

You wrap around me like a snake not letting me breathe
Let me breathe
I need to be free
Free from harm
And free from you.

Memories are a flood of pain
Coursing over my body
Leaving scars and wounds that no one else can see
And no one else can heal
But myself.

I am honoured to see your face
To feel your warmth
But let me be
I need to be freed from this thing we call reality
Let me back into my fantasy.

I am not asking you to let me fall back down into my river of denial
I am not asking you to let me let go of this life
Just let me be for I need to be set free
I want to spread my wings like the glorious eagle
I want to fly over the mountains with no care in the world.

Why do you keep asking if I am okay?
Does it look like I am suffering?
Don’t suffocate me with generosity
Stop selling your kindness
I don’t need it; I don’t need it at all.